Can I speak to the real you? Can you come back when your "self" is ready?

I believe Squill, from reading your many posts, that it's your intention to make one 'aware' of their spiritual beingness. I can agree with you that our educations are really an education in the thoughts of others. If I read a book on mathematics for example, and find in my own mind I 'agree' with what I have read it puts me in close proximity to the 'thoughts' of another which in turn makes me the product of anothers mind. This then implies that I have no 'created knowledge' of my own. To continue on a path of being the 'effect' of others thinking I may, as I think you are trying to imply, that I will cease to 'create' any knowledge for myself and lose any concept of my 'beingness' for lack of a better word. If this be the case squill and one was to become aware of a 'spiritual identity' it still does not compute to the existence of a supreme being.